Scott posted a condolence
Saturday, February 18, 2023
Dad... It's a shame our relationship ended how it did. I try to hold the fun good memories but as always, the ones that scare me usually win. I try to supress them when they arrise, but for some reason they always outweigh. In your next life, I hope you stay away from your vices that steered you away from the fun and caring dad you were inside. I'd be a liar if I said you never loved my brother and I.. I'd be a liar if I said I never loved you. We called you dad for a reason, that reason is what I'll continue to hold onto. You loved to teach us things, especially outdoor activities. I'm an expert gun marksman because of you, I can shoot a lizard in the head from 60 feet away with a blowgun everytime because of you, I love plants and animals because of you (i never knew another family with more pets than we had), best of all is my love for fishing and diving because of you. When it came to quality time together, you were better at providing this than I am with my own kids, and for that I have to hand it to you. I wish things were good between us so you were able to get to know your grandkids.. As you know, I'm sure, it was the jekel and hyde type of lifestyle that scares a child. I wish we could have removed what caused that in you decades ago but unfortunately it won. Terrible uncalled for things were said in our final conversation due to this, I know the words said were not from the real you, deep inside. I quit drinking around 10 years ago because I didn't want to be that same way. You will and always have been greatly missed. There is a tremendous pain knowing I'll never shoot another gun with you, setup a tent with you, learn about bug-out bags and survival techniques with you, cuddle on the couch watching UnsolvedMysteries and alien shows with you on boys nights if mom was out with friends, update you on my career, tell you how my kids are doing, a million more things could be said.. I hope you can view your life like a movie now, see what needs to be removed, so you can enter your next life with nothing but the amazing, loving side of you that I know you had. Love you dad..